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eveything happen too fast... i though u r the one that i found.. the one that i can share everything with ya... the one i can trust fully... the one that u will care about me.. at least a little i wish to... but at last .. im think i wrong... everything still the same... many thing happen last few week... but it look like all is me myself zi zuo duo qing.. is back to the day i come here... all alone.. all lonely... all i want is jus some one can care bout me.. concern bout me... when i moody have someone that can listen me to complain... someone that can make me feel better when i down... reduce my anger when i was mad... izit hard for me to find someone like this? girlfrenz hard to find.. but it look like true friend also hard to meet... my best frenz how r u there? quite a long time u din call me d... tat day i was totally down i called you but u never ans my phone... no one accompany tat night.. i just want to talk to sumbody but.. at last no one i found out... only cigaratte acc me... that was my 1st time really smoke... and i hate it... i hate it very much... coz i really dun like the smell and it make my stomach uncomfortable... but who know? the ans still the same "no one"!
study?! no 1 know how bad my study now... coz wat i studying now totally out of my interest... love? am i really bad? i just need some one that i care and she care bout me.. future? i think collect rubbish is the best job for me...
feel like wanna go racing to reduce my stress my moody but nothing else i can do here... unlesss... stand at the corridoor... see the sky with smelly smoke... i hate myself now... can i reborn? can i back to the day i choose my course? can i back to the day she still single?
my mind was totally blank now... wishing sumbody that i can talk to........

anyway, the gf bellow was a lie... u guys really think tat i will hav gf?! can hav a good beautiful gal?! if u really think that.. then i thanks you for that... and sorry for telling tat i bluff u... coz i jus bluffing myself that i got gf... sorry guys....

my mind was totally blank now... no mood study for exam... haih... useless me...
wishing sumbody that i can share to now........ miss you....